To feel insecure is human
To feel confident and insecure at the same time is human
To feel everything at once is human
Often though in our ego mind we only identify with the dominant thought
It could be checking through our emails or social media mindlessly
We scroll and nothing stands out
And yet dig a little deeper and there is probably that expectation
that something special will stand out, even anticipated bad news
Something that called out to us with joy, some level of excitement
a great offer, or even that anticipated bad news.
If nothing does, we can feel almost disappointed. A wasted action.
Particularly if we have an air of sadness, melancholy, just another day type of feeling
But when we are more aware we realise a rich tapestry of thoughts and feelings in every moment, always.
Richness and fulness is always there
We just have to practise being present and being aware to let it all in
We have to get out of the way to let it all in
To observe, to notice and allow it to be present in all its forms
So the scrolling can make us aware of every thought and feeling while we are doing it
The act itself becomes an act of mindfulness, not just an auto pilot action
More than seeking a spark of joy of receiving the right message in that post or email
We will never know what we can experience until we allow our ego to step aside and just be
The ego is not the enemy, it can be but really its just doing its job
Ultimately its trying to keep us safe
On the look out for bad news but hopeful of good news
Never really present to just what is, even mundaneness with the scrolling or searching
So next time you scroll or check those emails, do it with an open mind and heart
Delight in every moment.
Take in everything
The action of scrolling while feeling the ground under your feet while being aware of the weather
The sounds, the sights of right here, right now.
Who would have thought scrolling and email checking could be so rich and full of endless present moment awareness.
But it can be. Every moment of your life can be.
Just take the time to be aware.